Scared

I contemplated this for a little bit.

Decided no. Then called anyone who i lean on for support for some security, and nobody answered.

So now i'm going to rely on me.

I'm scared. To be alone right now. And even though I'm not under any danger... i'm nervous of what will come when i decide to take action on a certain matter in the next few days.

If you live in Rapid, You can probably expect me home on Friday.

I should probably stop talking now because i'm most likely making anyone who's reading this nervous.

I'll be fine. But, like i said... feeling pretty alone right now. really needing someone. and wishing that i weren't repeating history here.

i pick the best guys...